Something Borrowed

So this seems really weird and kind of shallow to me... but I learnt something from this movie, Something Borrowed, that I watched last night.

Basically it's the story of this girl who falls in love with this guy in university and they're almost dating and then the best friend comes along and kinda steals the guy from her... but she just stands there and lets it happen, she even encourages it because she so badly doesn't want this guy to know how she feels about him because she's afraid of getting rejected and hurt. Because of that the guy thinks that she doesn't have feelings for him at all and he goes for the other girl because he's kind of heartbroken that this girl doesn't like him the way he thought she might have. While I was watching it I actually got so stressed out and sad... weeeeird.

Moral of the story: Let people know you love them.

Let people know you love them, because they might not know.

I take for granted all the time that people just know that I love them, that they would just obviously pick up on it. But the more that I think about it, the more I realize that there are a lot of people out there that most likely have no idea how I feel about them. What a shame that we go through life only living it halfway.

Let people know that you love them. 

By Your Side

Why are you looking for love?

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough?

More Than Just Education

We invest a lot into our post-secondary education. Money, a lot of money, and time. Countless hours are spent both in the classroom and out. There is so much pressure from society to get a good education, to put yourself through this money grab that probably takes ten years off your life in stress... why is that?

What are we so desperately striving for through our education? And what are we filling our minds with every single day? 

I'm not sure if I really thought about this too much when I decided to go to CBC, I'm not sure that I really knew that God was calling me there.... I just liked the sound of it. More than anything else I just wanted to say that I went to Bible College, it had a sort of prestigious sound to it for some reason. 

Despite that, I've since realized that I'm here for more than just society points, I've continued on this path because I can't picture myself anywhere else, and I am making a conscious decision to fill my mind with something greater every single day. 

I could be spending less money working toward a degree that actually assures me a job at the end of my 4 years and 40 thousand dollars, but instead I'm working toward something so much greater than a good income.

Sometimes I can't actually believe that I'm doing this.

This week was mid-term week, everyone is stressed way past the healthy point, and of course, when we get to that retardedly stressful point we tend to drop everything except the thing that is stressing us out.
As a Christian that usually means that we drop our spiritual life, our relationship with God... the one thing that we need the most, is the one thing that we toss aside.

In one of my classes, Philosophy of Youth Ministry, there is no mid-term, and in class this week our prof decided to step away from the curriculum a little for the day and talk about our core values, or non negotiable ideas on living life for Christ.

Rather than having us stress out about a mid-term, he reminded us to focus in on God.

Why would I go to any other school? Why would I submerse myself in any other kind of education? Why would I fill my mind with anything else?

I love this place.

Lauren.

She told me to write about how awesome she is:

LAUREN IS AWESOME I LOVE HER TO PIECES.

Sorrow & Joy

The past two weeks have been eventful to say the least. Without a doubt the most sorrowful, terrifying and stressful two of my life. Some people say that bad things come in three's and I guess that holds a little truth here! It's also kinda funny how they went from worst to less worse... Graedon - Grandma - Accident. However, to change the direction after those three comes some amazing, exciting, crazy wonderful news: 

NEW BABY. WHOOP WHOOP. 

It's so amazing to think that there is a brand new life, a whole life, starting right now inside my sister. It actually starts to blow my mind if I think about it too much! So much is going to happen to that little guy/girl and it's all starting right now!! So so so amazing! 

And I'm so happy that I get to be a part of this :) 

Its crazy how all of this has gone down, there has been so much pain that it's actually hard to comprehend. It almost seems weird to be able to be this excited for this brand new life when two other lives just ended. 

But that's just the beauty of it, isn't it?

Imagine telling this little kid what an eventful time they were announced into. How there was all this sorrow and then this big burst of colourful joy... Like fireworks. What an honour to be this baby! To be the one who made people excited and happy when they really needed it.

I love you already, baby!

So so so scary

I've told this story too many times to tell it all again, but I was in a car accident on Monday in the car that I've had for a total of a week and two days... it was terrifying. Enough said.

I woke up at 3:00am Tuesday morning with the sound and sort of feeling of it playing over and over in my head.

It's weird, because it felt exactly the way I imagined an accident to feel. You know those car safety commercials where they have the view from the inside of the vehicle on impact? That's exactly what it felt like! Seriously... so so so so sooo scary.

This past week has literally been the worst one of my life, there is no question about that. I'm trying to think of anything good that possibly came out of all of this and this one word just keeps running through my head:

Fragile


We are all so incredibly fragile. Life can be over at age 14 when no one is ready for you to go, or when you're old and you've lived your life.. but still no one wants to see you go. And life can also be over in the blink of an eye. Before your brain even has time to recognize what is happening your life could be over.

So make it count.

Love deeply
Don't hold grudges
Tell people when you love them
Laugh lots
Don't complain
Seriously... count your blessings when you wake up in the morning
Don't let little things bother you
Be nice
Do something different and fun
Give people hugs. You never know when it might be the last goodbye.

I'm so thankful to be alive.

Rain makes everything better.

rainymood. It's actually the best thing ever.

I got more homework done tonight than I have in forever, maybe it's thanks to the deadline and pile of homework hanging over my head... or maybe it's thanks to rainymood. We'll never know.

But check it out! It makes me happy :)